Oh my God, I’m shaking all over, I thought I’d lost everything
Hearing, sense, smell and the soft touch of linen
Even the slightest noise makes me
At night, in the dark, I sing and try to chase
The ghosts from my mind. I kick stones, I make more noise
So as not to be surprised by the wind
But her eyes are glued to me
I turn around and she’s there, I turn back and she smiles at me
I turn my back and find her in front of me as if she were real
The same smile as always, her hand almost touching
My cheek, I can almost feel it, but then
It’s just a cold wind. A breath, a whisper, and she disappears.
Until it comes back to haunt me.
It gives me no peace. I have no peace
God, God, if only I could close my eyes and erase
Everything. Everything. Past, present, future.
In an instant, they disappear and make way
For a new story.
A story in which I am also there. Me.
Two letters, one sound, me. How I wish I could open the door and let
Fresh air in. To be able to start again
Start again… Start again God.